So in conclusion to all that, thank you to everyone that will end up welcoming me back with open arms and forgive me for being gone, like I said I didn’t want to be gone. I didn’t want to loose 500 subscribers and all this bad stuff happen to me It’s time to start kicking some ass and come back bigger and stronger then ever !
2020-10-15 01:48:27 +0000 UTC View PostI have over 300 messages I need to read over the next couple days I know it’s gonna take me forever and I’m sorry to anyone that has been owed anything or anything I guess we’re kind of gonna have to just like start fresh and you know feel free to send me a message if I owe anything to you. kind of shitty about the whole content stuff with videos because now I’m just gonna have to make all new videos and picture sets but I have a bunch of ideas and stuff I’m going to be concocting up when I start making content again starting tomorrow and I’m going to Jamie‘s at the end of the month to watch her dog for five days hopefully because I need to have another environment to make content in and since I didn’t get to make any content last time at Jamie‘s or very little and I lost all the content I made on salt Spring this is going to be a nice step in the right direction for me for content and just like all this month I’m gonna be making content here at home because I finally I’ve gotten my room finished since I have had nothing else to fucking deal over the last few months other than stressing out and ripping my hair out literally but I’m gonna be making a shit ton of content and I’m back for the long-haul now guys don’t be worried that I’m gonna disappear because I was literally like I said it was out of my control me disappearing and I wouldn’t of left for that long if I had the fucking choice choice.
2020-10-15 01:46:20 +0000 UTC View PostI don’t even know where to start! Oh my fucking god guys! I ducking missed you all so much and I’m so sorry I’ve been gone! It was way out of my control ! I’ve had so much shit happen to me over this last while. I came back from salt spring with a thousand dollar phone bill and they cut my phone off. All my shit was compromised. Money missing from my accounts and have no idea how or where to diagnose half the shit that has happened and so much more. We cut off internet and had to get new internet from a different provider. A lot of this stuff that has happened to me has been super triggering to my mental health and I was in the right track to get better in suggest and then that shit that happened after Jamie’s and then this shit happening after salt spring I’ve just back tracked and my mental health has went to shits and to be honest I’d just much rather not talk about all this stuff that has happened cause it’s so much stuff I don’t understand and I haven’t been able to find answers and it’s taken this long already with no success and I’ve lost so many people from being gone so I’ve just threw in the towel with trying to figure this shit out and just move on and start new and just give up trying to figure it out. So I just want to move on and start fresh and hope that things just work them selves out now that I’m completely reset and have all new accounts, minus my onlyfans account. It’s my only account that’s not brand new. I’m so sorry that so many of you have lost faith in me from disappearing but It was out of my hands and I had to. I’ve lost so much already. I lost all my content I made in salt spring, all my videos. I really do appreciate everyone who has stayed and didn’t give up on me just quite yet! I’m back for the long haul! I won’t be leaving again, I can’t afford to anyways. I’m trying to download all the apps and stuff I need for all my phone and see how much past content I can retrieve from my Dropbox so that I can have content to post in the mean time while I start making all new content now since basically lost everything.
2020-10-15 01:44:18 +0000 UTC View PostMan I really really really hope they’re actually is a clawfoot tub outside there because I forgot that I have these wicked cool fucking LED lights if I haven’t lost them already and if I can find them in time but you put those in the bathtub and like it’s got a light at the tub and it’s gonna look so fucking cool because I’m gonna go out there at night time with the LED lights and candles bubbles and all my fucking God 😍
2020-08-28 20:33:33 +0000 UTC View PostI won’t make the 3 pm ferry so I have to leave at 3 from home to drive to the ferry to get the 5 pm ferry . Gives me an hour an a I’ll longer you pack and get ready !! Yay 😀 it’s not the end of the world for me yet !
2020-08-28 20:30:57 +0000 UTC View PostI really do not think I’m going to make the second 3pm frrry. I have to go out and get rid of all the garbage that was in the car and I still have to pack the car and I’m not even finished packing myself and I’m driving to go pick up Adam right now at Lordco and fuck it’s already quarter after 1/2 an hour I know we’re not gonna be able to leave at 1:45 fuck at least it gives me more time to pack but no we’re not gonna get there till late but I really don’t know yet I have to wait till I go grab Adam and see if we’re actually gonna make it or not I highly doubt we’re gonna be able to leave at 1:45 like we planned still have to fucking get Charlie in the car to
2020-08-28 20:14:50 +0000 UTC View Postwell I just need to accept that yet again I'm not going to be prepared enough to go and I'm just going to have to bring what I can and work with what I got and my plans of course I have fucked up yet again so whatever I may only be able to bring a few outfits and have a few ideas instead of what I had to begin with but whatever I don't want to be late and I don't want to miss the ferry and I don't want to let this ruin my day
2020-08-28 19:32:14 +0000 UTC View PostFuck I'm leavi g at 125i literqly have an hour to get ready before I leave
2020-08-28 19:14:04 +0000 UTC View PostLike always I'm so fucking unprepared and I don't know I feel like garbage today waking up. Do you still have to pack . I haven't even bought food to go there yet I haven't even eaten yet today because I just fucking woke up but I think I need to catch the ferry at like I don't think I'm going to fucking catch the 3pm fairy I'm going to have to probably catch the 5:00 ferry cuz it takes like almost an hour just to drive to the fair. so I literally have like fucking just pack like crazy and I'm not even finish cleaning my room I am like the worst person ever for planning and organizing anything. I already know I'm going to end up forgetting a shit ton of stuff and I can't even buy food before going there really sure what I'm going to do about that because I'm going to have Charlie with me and I can't really doesn't leave her all the time especially to go to the grocery store so I might be out of luck for food 🙃. especially I woke up with a freaking sick stomach like I feel like I'm going to be sick and Adam is going to be here in like half an hour and we have to go to Alpine. I still have to shower. Well I'm up and out of bed now time to start fucking scattering all over the place like a fucking lunatic because I'm rushing to the next few hours to get ready
2020-08-28 18:51:32 +0000 UTC View PostAm I like the only person that gets shit on for asking how the other person's day was and they say their watching a video and says that I do this l the time? What? I ask you how your day was?sooooorrry then for even taking an interest in how your fucking day was then ..
2020-08-28 01:31:33 +0000 UTC View Post
Got me a nice brand new jar of Vick’s the other day 😁 literally addicted to this shit
2020-08-28 00:14:06 +0000 UTC View PostI'm pretty excited to go to salt Spring this weekend and I make some content do it right this time already have a few ideas of what I'm going to do can I do some nice outdoor pictures for sure because I'm at a cabin but I don't know if there's going to be a lot of people around so I have to at least be cautious but if there is that tub there I'm definitely going to be making some content in that maybe bring Velma with me got a few ideas so I'm going tomorrow song so I can actually have a good day tomorrow and be happy
2020-08-27 23:52:05 +0000 UTC View PostI keep trying to post these butt pictures I took outside literally every time I fucking upload the pictures that go upside down and I don’t fucking know why and it’s because I’m using my new phone and all I just want to do is post Some butt pictures that’s all but I don’t want them to be fucking upside down
2020-08-27 22:53:40 +0000 UTC View Post
Well unfortunately didn't get the cabin that I wanted but I got the one next door! and I was really sad at first because I didn't think that the one next door had a tub outside but I googled and I think there might be a tub outside at this one too! I'm still in the dark because since they have the place for sale I don't know what it actually looks like these are just pictures I found in Google images when I search the name but for all I know it might not even look like this anymore but they're selling it so you would think it would be somewhat nice enough looking. I kind of really lucked out because since I stayed with them before at the cabin next door they told me when I called them that they're completely all booked up for August and September cuz you know Corona and everybody just wants to get out and go get away from people so he told me he was going to call me back cuz he wanted to talk to his wife about something and then he called me back and told me that the cabin next door they're actually selling a property, so he said that that one is ready for viewings and him and his wife said that I could take that one since I'm just staying for two days on the weekend and they're letting me bring chalrie as well! so it's already confirmed I've already paid for it so I'm hoping I can make this one cute because it's not exactly like the other Cameron is very cabiny like . I may end up just taking content agency videos outside if it does have a tub outside
2020-08-27 22:05:49 +0000 UTC View PostI’m giving them two hours and then I’m calling them if they don’t email me back lol
2020-08-27 19:52:22 +0000 UTC View PostI’m very impatient. I hope the cabin emails me back ! I messaged him via their contact form but then on top of that I sent them an email because you know you never know if it actually went through on the contact form and I’m super impatient and if they don’t like message me back in like a few hours I’m calling them because well for one I’m going tomorrow if I am going in for two if I can’t get a hold of them I have to find somewhere else to go but I want to go to that one because it has the fucking wicked ass tub outside so and then I can bring Charlie with me to show fuck and go crazy in love it but yeah I really really really hope the answer I hope they have it available
2020-08-27 19:51:31 +0000 UTC View PostLiterally one of the nicest things today I’ve read from somebody messaging me said that my feelings are valid And then I’m allowed to be sad and I’m allowed to be depressed feelings are valid and it means so much and that literally makes me so fucking happy that somebody would say that and it doesn’t make me feel like I’m a complete nutcase
2020-08-27 19:49:43 +0000 UTC View PostSo I might be going to salt spring island this weekend where the cabin was that I went to last year! I’m going to try and see if I can rent it again so I can make content because I never got to actually use that outdoor tub! Like in all honesty because of corona I don’t really see it being booked but crazier things like I guess corona is kind of over but not but I am going to see and if not hopefully there’s something else that’s cute or an Airbnb but I’m definitely gonna make content this weekend
2020-08-27 18:46:47 +0000 UTC View PostWhy can I not catch a fucking break? why do I constantly get put in these fucking shitty ass fucking positions where I literally just want to fucking call up in the fettal position and fucking this crying cry and cry. Literally I can't win.
2020-08-27 16:18:34 +0000 UTC View PostI love that i showed Adam that picture of me with my boob with the red housecoat and I said look my boob was fucking huge and his response back was its just an optical illusion. And I was like no fucking isn't, it was huge but thanks 👍
2020-08-27 01:22:58 +0000 UTC View PostOh! by the way they appealed my fucking suspension again! super happy because that was a lot faster than last time but who knows when theyll suspend me again 🙃😑🙄
2020-08-27 01:16:19 +0000 UTC View Post
Some more really good pics that I've found in my vault. Sure they're older pics when I first got into this industry but they still are still super nice! Lol yeah I used to actually have long brown hair at one point. and I've literally been wearing the choker for probably at least 10 years not even kidding you
2020-08-27 01:13:14 +0000 UTC View Post
you never really had a chance to see much of my bright pink only hair cuz it didn't stay pink for long because I bleached it shortly after . These two are my favorite pictures with my pink hair when I did have pink hair
2020-08-27 01:10:35 +0000 UTC View Post
Like holy smokes this is my boob from fuckin I think like 2017 Jesus merphy ! It was fucking huge!!
2020-08-27 01:09:00 +0000 UTC View Post
Did somebody call for a Gracie teddy bear? 🐻
2020-08-27 01:08:06 +0000 UTC View Post
That smile tho ♥️ This is one of my favorite nipple covering pictures I love how my boobs are shaped. I was so wasn't a way to add more volume to your boobs without having to get surgery but probably one day I probably will still and of getting it because I don't want to figure boobs per se I just want more volume and like fullness and its unfortunate the people have to get surgery even just to get that I love the size of my boobs I just want them more full and it would help a shit ton with my confidence and people wouldn't fucking hard all me so much about looking younger if I had slightly larger fuller boobs. the thing with women that get boobs is sick it boobs it our way to big and not even proportionate to their body size so I at least with me I'm not on the pool thing of getting huge honking boobscuz I would just look stupid with my body sucks so literally just want the top to be fuller but I basically almost want the same size maybe just a cup size larger. It's actually something that I've always wanted to do for myself and not because other people make me feel like it but honestly it with the amount of hate that I keep getting on red it all the time even though I post in the sub right it's that are pertaining to what I want like small tits so that I get heart done looking under age.I seriously feel like I'm going to be dealing with this forever cuz people are too stupid and can't look at a profile and see you that I've been in this industry whole like 4 fucking years.but if I ever did get boobs really look any much different than they do know just don't leave or fuller so don't hate me if I do end up getting boobs one day . I'm definitely going to be getting your shit out of tattoos now because I feel a little silly that everybody thinks the real and I'm like really hitting it hard on alt gone wild and to be fair I'm like literally falling in love with my son see those tattoos on my chest and my body so I'm probably going to edit getting tattoos and and get together nipples pierced to
2020-08-27 01:06:27 +0000 UTC View Post
I found some gems on google of me when I first started camming lmao . That's me 3 years ago lol
2020-08-27 00:59:38 +0000 UTC View Post
