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good morning everyone! i don’t feel tired today!!! that’s a win ♡ i’m still a little anxious about my upcoming flight, but overall everything’s okay :3 my wig styling spray is already on the way, and i’ve almost finished my kurowear outfit—so something cool is coming soon! not sure if i’ll manage to finish everything i planned, but i’ll try my best right now i just wanna play oblivion and share some thoughts i already have. i first played it when i was around 11 or 12. my dad and i went to a game store and i got the collector’s edition—there was even a t-shirt included, which my mom claimed and wore for workouts :D once i started playing, i was completely hooked (even though the oblivion gates used to scare me a bit). i remember every game i played before i turned 14 as being way more beautiful and realistic than they actually are. and now… i launch the remastered oblivion, and i seriously tear up—because it looks exactly like how i remember it in my heart. the nostalgia and sense of adventure completely pull me in. i don’t even remember if the original had stat distribution after leveling up or stamina-based sprinting—but these additions don’t feel wrong. this still is that same game. i keep walking by places thinking, “oh! something cool happens here…” maybe new players won’t feel what i feel, but for me this is a very special game. i often try replaying games from my childhood but end up feeling a little disappointed because the memories are always prettier than the reality. but this remaster… it feels like i’m playing the exact game i remember. and that’s magical #skinny #alt #altgirl #cosplay #sfw #stockings #cosplayer #teen

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And so, I felt better and got back to work! Today I styled a wig for the next cosplay, it turns out very beautiful! At least I like X) In fact, I stopped halfway through the work. After a bunch of cosplay wigs, it was on this wig that the styling polish ran out. And it is this wig that cannot be styled without hairspray I ordered a new one, I am very actively waiting!! For this cosplay, an incredibly beautiful costume that I have been wanting to order for a very long time. The cosplay was bought with a tip from my birthday By the way:3 Thank you again Perhaps it's even good that the spray ended, I didn't notice that it turned out that I was tired. And because of the forced break, I will not overwork #skinny #tiny #cosplay #teen #anime #animegirl #emo #altgirl #small #cosplayer

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Good day to you! I have several videos here that I want to share :3

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I think there are several reasons. but the main reason is that I am leaving Thailand in less than a month and I wanted to have so much to do here before I left... of course I can do it all when I come back here again.... but I wanted to do it this month. and I feel like my efforts are not commensurate with the results. and there are so many places I wanted to visit... and I have a guilty conscience on days when I'm on vacation. I'm trying to organize my thoughts. I don't want the rest of my time to be sad.

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For some reason it's been very sad today since I woke up. I'm trying to fix it

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Literally, a feeling of nostalgia that makes me cry pleasant, kind tears

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some photos not really cosplay-related today ♡ there was this soft scattered light that felt kinda magical, i really liked it i also tried finishing a prop for my future cosplay today, but as soon as i started painting it… i realized i forgot the primer.. the paint just wouldn’t stick to the material. i’ll have to grab some pva glue later – the easiest and cheapest way to prime porous stuff aside from that, i’m finally starting to rest a bit. even treated myself and started replaying one of my childhood favorites games – oblivion. it honestly feels like nothing’s changed at all compared to how i remember it. though i always remember old games looking more realistic and beautiful than they actually are… #slender #skinny #bikini #small #altgirl #teen #tiny #petite

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good day! It's so ridiculous :D yesterday I told myself that I would rest and properly manage my strength. on the same day, I went for a massage to rest and after that I wanted to go to bed. but... instead, I crafted one item for the character's cosplay... despite the fact that I have no strength and I literally do it, overcoming my condition, but I am too happy about the creative process. I'm a creative addict... all my thoughts are occupied with ideas... how can I relax when I want so many things. and when I finished, I felt terrible, too tired and this is accumulated fatigue. but I want to do something so much... How to make me rest T_T I really need rest In addition, when I work a lot, I communicate very little... I'm so ashamed #skinny #tiny #cosplay #teen #anime #petite #underboob #emo #altgirl

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hey! and good day to you all. i slept for a long time today and when I woke up it was too hot to go outdoors. but I had a great night's sleep. i still feel tired, but it's getting better. i wanted to sort out all the photos from this photo set and the next few with this character and organize them in folders by posting days to make it easier to post later, but i almost overworked myself again and decided to do it later. it's hard to write anything right now and nothing is happening, I'm just recovering. but at the same time the packages that i ordered for my birthday came. cosplay that i want to work on and kurowear clothes that also need to be finalized.... i know what i'll do when I'm rested. the most important thing is not to overwork again and not to forget to rest. #cosplay #sneakers #kneesocks #legs #cosplayer #cute #emo #alt #altgirl

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I'm so tired... It was probably a bad idea to work almost all hours for many days in a row... I made another photo set, even 2 But I can't do anything else now. I'm exhausted mentally and physically Again, jumps from productivity to a state when it is difficult to even lift a finger. Someday I will learn how to correctly distribute my forces sleep.. I will sleep and when I wake up I will go to nature... #skinny #tiny #cosplay #teen #anime #animegirl #emo #altgirl #alt #tease

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I've fixed the audio and added a loading process :D Sorry for the spam, please. This spoiled sound haunted me

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~stocking cosplay~ yay! i can finally show you the wig i rescued! doesn’t look doomed at all now, right? :3 like i guessed, it doesn’t tangle—just mixes itself up a lot, but it's easy to brush. i even took pics of the fixing process so you can see the before & after — i’ll show them a bit later! still, it’s a pain to work with something this long... i have to brush it after every photo and every video. but i think it’s worth it also planning to take more pics soon. i’ve got some, but i want more :3 my right hand is officially done after all the brushing and crimping. feels like every little muscle in my wrist is tired and begging for rest happy but exhausted. gonna hang out on here a bit more, do some work, eat something, and then—finally—rest and sleep #cosplay #cosplayer #costume #emo #alt #altgirl #young #student #tiktok

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wow, who’s that?

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and here I am again! after 2 days of work, I completely unraveled the tangles and corrugated a huge wig, which seemed to me destroyed. in addition, I styled the bangs as needed and trimmed them. am I tired? incredibly tired. am I satisfied with the result? yes, I am satisfied and I also really liked the process will a long wig be stable in different poses? well, it will still be tangled, but much less and it will be easy to comb, and the bangs are practically concreted, although externally it is not visible and after that, new tools came to me... well, I'll check it on the next wig :D i'm sorry that I didn't answer anyone today, I've been hugging a wig literally since I woke up and now I've spent the rest of my energy on this post and will sleep tomorrow I will take photos with the rescued wig and then random people on reddit will say that making a cosplay is just tapping on the phone screen... meanwhile, I, who spent 2 days on a simple but long wig with almost no rest:D in general, good morning to you or good night. and I wish myself good dreams and a good night's sleep oh, I need some tags, I almost forgot... #skinny #tiny #small #egirl #petite #teen #altgirl #cosplay #slender #tape okay, that's done. see you tomorrow!

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~ black tape PPV set ~ after thinking for a long time, i decided that the rest of the photos felt too special to me, so i put all of them into this PPV set. there are shots with the full black tape outfit and some where the tape is partially peeled off — both are here. i know the preview photo maybe should’ve gone in the set too… but i really wanted to leave it here. i just love how the light falls on my body in it, and i hope others can enjoy that too — the way the photo feels :D okay now i’m getting nervous again while writing this… this photoset always make me shy and i still don’t know what to do with that to calm myself down, maybe i’ll just tell you how my day went~ i got a few packages, and then decided to try fixing a wig for an anime character i once cosplayed — i had to stop that set too early because the wig was too long and kept tangling. so today i spent most of it gently crimping and detangling. didn’t finish yet, but made a lot of progress. honestly, my arms just got tired. it was kind of meditative… i felt like using my hands today instead of overloading my brain again. feeling a little bit calmer now and now I'd rather hide to calm down completely. I'll probably go to bed! #skinny #teen #tiny #small #xsmall #skiny #slender #petite #tape

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hey! have a good day :3 I continue to work on the profile, so far things are going slowly, but I take it too seriously instead of the usual post, I need an honest opinion. not so long ago, I made a black body tape costume. I doubt about something. It looks too dressed and too undressed at the same time, and this is done according to the reference from the video where the model walks on the catwalk in this... I'm thinking of making a small paid set with some of the photos that seem more special to me and where some of the tapes got away from me. putting some of it for free, but a couple by subscription etc I don't know what exactly I want to ask and what answer I want to get x_x I just really like the way it looks and it seems like it's more than I usually upload forget it. I'll take care of it myself x) It's a little chaotic, but let's keep it that way shy by my own text... lol

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Hey, everybody! I've already sent you a mass message about the rebuilds on my profile..... but my god, there's no way I can complete it in one day. Actually, the impetus was really one new feature. but that led to me wanting to completely redo all the decorations and etc. so you could say we're a mess of a renovation right now. I've been running this profile for a long time and it's been a long time since anything has changed, although I feel like I've changed and I want it to be more fresh.... but I'm very afraid that you might not like the changes... I will probably change my page more than once in the next month until I have something that I am happy with. I just ask one thing. please be understanding T_T

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have a great day, everybody :3 rest is rest but yesterday before I went to bed I turned on YouTube to find a calm video to lull me to sleep and I came across a video of a wigmaker.... after that I fell asleep only at 5 am and all because I was very inspired by this channel and I studied how this master works and ran all night testing the wrong hair curler and then looking for the right steamer and curler.... I spent half the night cuddled up with the wig and the other half looking for and buying new things to work with the wig and learning the material. I'll be practicing a little on the test wig to make the wig for the next cosplay when it arrives will be amazing. This is the nighttime obsession with wigs... #cosplay #teen #tiny #petite #goth #alt #egirl #feet #legs

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Have a good day, everyone! I came up with a little something for myself. What if on days when I start to feel burned out or I don't like some content, I just look into the past of my profile and post occasionally what I've already forgotten and what I genuinely like? On the one hand it's repetitive content and a little clutter..... on the other hand it's a refresher and a day of rest and a chance to recover from a little burnout. and maybe someone just hasn't seen the content yet. I still have a whole bunch of unpublished content and I still can't look at most of it sensibly, but I'm slowly getting used to it and I'm starting to like some of it. Anyway, screw trying to justify myself! 2 pictures that haven't been here in a while won't spoil anything, at least now I like the idea and I really want to show you these pictures again. I really like the light here, the image and the sense of mystery. I have a lot of new content coming soon, but for now i'm resting. i have a lot of ideas and i want to do them with all my strength. #skinny #alt #goth #gamergirl #teen #slender #stockings #egirl

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and I also had 2 weird videos but I thought it was still worth uploading even if it was weird x) Also, you can see my nostrils peeking out from under the wig in this video — it looks kinda funny I'm totally caught up in thinking about future content right now and can't think about anything else. #alt #skinny #legs #stockings #latex #thighhigh #goth #egirl

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Wishing everyone a lovely day! I finally came up with and ordered my Kurowear (tech-cyber wear) look! I think I’ll receive everything I need by mid-June. And along the way, I had a pretty unusual experience — I wasn’t sure what exactly I wanted to get, so I started drawing different items from my shopping cart on top of a photo of myself, layering them like paper dolls. It turned into this sort of virtual dress-up game with all the possible options. But surprisingly, that’s what helped me make the final decision! Normally, I pick outfits more chaotically from whatever I already have in my wardrobe — but I didn’t own a lot of the pieces I needed for this style, and I couldn’t just buy half the store only to decide what looks good after it arrives. I think once I do the photoset, I’ll also show you my little sketches :3 They turned out kinda cute and messy. But if I show them now, it would be too much of a spoiler… I’ll just say this: it’s not a ready-made costume — it’s a bunch of separate items that I’ll be slightly customizing! #skinny #altgirl #goth #smallbutt #ass #smallass #smallbooty #teeny

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Today was a wonderful day! I cleaned up, ate a delicious meal, took new photos, found a video with Jinx for you :3 waiting for the delivery of a cute cosplay and trying to put together a kurowear outfit, it took all my thoughts! Today I noticed that I accidentally ordered 2 identical wigs and urgently canceled the order... Before that, for a long time I could not understand why the price of the order is more expensive than I thought :D But I'm still planning to redo Jinx's cosplay!! And I'm also afraid that I won't have time to finish a lot, because in about a month I'm flying away to see my family for many months, But even if so, I can finish it when I get back. Also, in my home apartment, I want to redo some cosplays #cosplay #jinx #cosplayer #alt #egirl #skinny #tiny #small

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Hey! some more pictures with tapes :3 today was a very sleepy but good day. i couldn't wake up because it was raining all morning and the sky was dark gray. then i found out about power nap and decided to try it in hopes that it would make me want to sleep less. spoiler. it didn't work :D I also had an incredibly delicious meal today. i went to the grocery store and bought groceries for dinner and breakfast, which promises to be just as good as dinner. I made spirulina noodles with different kinds of mushrooms, tofu, 3 kinds of cheese, beans, garlic onions, etc and added ham. I'm full and there's still a lot of food left so I'll have something to eat tomorrow:3

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Oh, and I also wanted to show you this! I love AI and it's my enemy at the same time! I forgot to switch the normal photo mode to Pro mode. in normal mode you can't turn off AI processing. in Pro mode there is no AI processing. The way I saw it: I open a photo and see that everything is perfect and beautiful. then the upload icon appears and in a second the photo turns into a weird thing. in general Ai like to be wrong and will not take over the world anytime soon:D In the photos in the last post, I tried to fix it, but it didn't work out very well

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good morning or good afternoon or good evening or just hello, everyone! I am pleasantly shocked! I am shocked by the number of notifications and messages I see now, today I will try to answer everyone:3 I did not expect that so many people would want to congratulate me and make me happy, thank you very much! yesterday was a great day, I went for a little walk with my friends, we swam in the pool, then went to the sauna and then had a delicious meal and watched a movie that my friend recommended. we laughed and joked so much it was so nice! We didn't play board games because I didn't buy it in advance and during the walk we wanted to buy something to play but in the end we decided that we will play another time because in the stores there were only Thai language games. now I'm looking for a board game that will be interesting not only for me but also for those who usually don't play games :3 Also, my friend gave me a cake and I went out for a while to take pictures with the cake in my room. and then we ate this delicious cake together!

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Jinx photos:3 But I'm going to redo the photo set anyway! I'm actually going to try to take pics from the celebration today, the water park was canceled because of the high price and I'm going swimming with my friends either in the ocean or in the pool and we want to play board games and figure out something else as the situation arises. but you'll probably see the picture with the cake and I'll try to do something festive for you on other days. and today I'll just celebrate.

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it's my birthday today! yay!!! I spent all day yesterday trying to think of something festive and some activities on my profile, but I think I forgot the main thing, it's my birthday and I can just relax on this day:3 I also wanted to come up with a Wishlist and I realized that almost everything I want is related to my art. I wrote some of the things I would like, but really the most desirable things I will gift myself by hard work:3 But in case anyone is wondering, for cosplays I dream of a sewing machine, a 3d printer, and a camera. I also found a really cute outfit for cosplaying a character I like..... and... I found a subreddit kurowear and now I dream of putting together a costume in this style. it's something between techwear and cyberpunk yesterday I was so into learning about this style and was so excited that I was exhausted from emotional overexcitement. There's a lot of things I'd like to do, and if you want, you can give me one of them or just send me a tip and leave it up to me. and you know what, you have already given me the most important gift of all. you have given me a piece of yourself, your time, attention, emotions. you help me create. i do what i love. even if my perfectionism drives me crazy, it's because i really care about what i do here. Thank you all so much for everything you do for me. and I also decided to show you a little bit of jinx cosplay pics :3 I'm gonna be kinder to myself today

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Tomorrow is my birthday!!! trying to prepare everything and even the mood is good :3 no matter what happens tomorrow I want to make it a great day!!!!

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It happened again. I'm sorry. Now it is very difficult for me and it takes all my energy and time. I’m stuck in that loop again. I take tons of photos, change lighting, location, outfits, angles, poses, everything. I try every possible option — and still, I’m unhappy with the result. I’m not even sure about the set I posted today... I love the process of creating photos, but somehow, when I start looking at the outcome, I feel disappointed with everything. The lighting: either too plain, or too dark, or too bright, or too colorful... Shadows are either too harsh, completely gone, or just boring. The poses: standing — too dull. Standing straight — even worse. Unusual standing pose — looks weird. Complicated or sitting pose — can’t really see the body properly and it just looks uninteresting. Shot from behind? Boring. Shot from the front? Too typical. Side view? Just... odd. And that kind of nitpicking happens with every detail. It took so much effort just to pick something for today’s post. It’s kind of a nightmare and I don’t understand why I’ve ended up here again. I guess I’m just way too demanding when it comes to the final result…

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I really liked making clothes from soft tapes, I think that I should buy more tapes and make different outfits :3 Maybe even cosplay in this style? #skinny #tiny #small #egirl #petite #teen #altgirl

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